Rescue Me

Last week I thought I needed rescuing. But I got through it all on my own. Which seems to be the way I do things. God only knows why none of my supposed friends have been there for me. There are a few exceptions to this rule. I talk to Megan all the time and to Sara, but where the hell is everyone else. I know people have lives and other things to do, but how long does it take to make a damn phone call. I am sick of being the one that initiates plans and tries to get us all together. I am done! I know I am always busy with school but I at least try to make an attempt to contact people. It would be nice if people would return the favor on occasion. Don't give me the crap about being far to busy, I know far too busy, quite well actually. I still manage to talk to my friends in Canada who have equally crazy schedules, they don't ever seem to be "too busy." Guess moving to Canada is going to be better for me. At least then I will have friends around.

Hitting a wall...

only in the emotional and exhaustion sense. I can't believe how freaking tired I am right now. Staying up late to finish projects, getting up early to do more school work, clinical for 8 hours..most of which is downtime, and then realizing how much work I have to do this weekend. Oh and I am going away this weekend. So much for enjoying myself. Paper due and an exam. Fun fun.

The wall actually motivated me to finish one paper tonight after clinical, so thats a plus. I have to drive dad to CT in the morning to pick up his new RV so we can use it this weekend. Then home for more school work and clinical. Friday morning class and dad wants to leave when I get home. I have yet to figure out when I am going to pack and dig out kitchen supplies for the RV. I am thinking we aren't leaving right at 11:30 on Friday. He will have to deal.

Off to bed. Before I fall asleep with the laptop on my lap.

Credit

I really ought to give my dad more credit. I always knew the man was smart and intuitive but I keep finding out more about him that surprises me. He is coming to terms with the fact that I want to move out in a year, to another country. And he is ok with it. He said that he knows I am ready to face adulthood and be my own person. I have always been my own person, but it has always been my own person, close to everyone else and in a very secure place. He mentioned something about me being an adult and soon getting married and having a family of my own and that he can't wait for that to happen for me. Love you dad!! He also seems to be more accepting of certain choices I have made lately. For this I am eternally grateful. I was thinking no one would ever be good enough for his little girl.

Just remember dad the only man a girl can trust is her daddy. And I will always be your little girl.

Love you!!!